Word of the week: Tired

Word of the week: TIRED

So, the word of the week for me is tired. It’s Saturday morning and I’m writing this post from my bed. Mr O did the wonderful thing of getting up with our toddler to let me have a sleep in. BUT like most mums will agree, having a sleep in when you’re actually allowed to is impossible.

Word of the Week: Tired

This week has been incredibly busy. Not because we’ve had days out or done fun stuff but because I’ve had a lot on with work. I mostly work from home and sometimes i find it hard to balance the work-home life. Someone or something has been neglected by me at some point this week. Whether it’s some of the housework, one of the kids or my own well being, i have definitely dropped a few balls.

It doesn’t help that i have a toddler that quite clearly hates me. Okay, i know she doesn’t hate me. But, when she decides it’s time to get up at 3 am on the fourth consecutive day, you really start to think she hates you.

This routine has been the same for most of the week – She will wake, stand up in her cot and cry initially. I go in and settle her down. Two minutes later, she is stood up again, this time shouting “mummy”, ” daddy”, “story”. This all seems very adorable, and at any other time of day, I’m thinking how cute and adorable my little girl is. But, for a good hour at 3 am for the fourth night running, ‘adorable’ is not the word i would choose at that moment.

Tears

If I could use two words to describe this week, Tears would definitely be the second.

Trying to use my brain for work when your feeling pretty exhausted is nigh on impossible. On top of that, knowing there’s so many things you should have done but didn’t get round to – washing, work calls that needed making, cleaning. Plus the mum guilt for not making the most of the summer holidays and getting the kids out and about. And by the end of the week, i broke and Mr O got it. And not in a good way.

So, after dragging my tired and emotional corpse through this week, on Thursday night it took one inconsequential comment from Mr O and the flood gates opened. I cried my little leg off. Exhausted and hormonal, i cried my mascara all down my face. I didn’t really have anything to be upset about but once I started, I couldn’t stop. The Dam had burst.

Mr O panicked and thought he had done something to upset me and i wish he had. At least then I could explain why I was so upset but i couldn’t. It was like all the pent up stress and worry i built up through the week at being too tired to do everything the way it was supposed to be done and not drop any of the spinning plates, came out in floods.

That and the fact that my period is in full flow probably doesn’t help. Hormones play havoc with me on a normal day, you just have to take a look at my post on PMS to know this. And they definitely had a big part to play this week.

Offloaded

I met a friend for coffee yesterday and pretty much offloaded my bone warily tired self onto her. This actually did the world of good and i came home feeling a lot better. It turns out her toddler hates her too and she’d had an equally shit week. It’s nice having someone who knows where I’m coming from.

Feeling much better

Although i fell asleep on the sofa last night during movie night, we are now on Saturday and my terrible, nearly two-year-old woke up only once last night. I settle her down and she stayed down, giving me a much better night sleep. This morning I’m feeling much better, especially after my ‘no sleeping’ sleep in. I’m ready to enjoy what’s left of the summer on this lovely bank holiday weekend with my friends and family. Oh, and also hoping next weeks ‘word of the week’ is not Tired.

 

How has your week been? Do you ever feel so tired you might drop at any moment? Or just spontaneously burst into tears? I’d love to hear all about.

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17 thoughts on “Word of the week: Tired

  • Awww, no matter how cute they are when they keep you awake its just no fun. I hope you manage a more restful week which will also help improve your emotions. Tiredness really is the pits. Thanks for linking up to #wotw

  • Ahh no sleep is no fun. Sometimes you have to have a good cry, let it all out and feel better. Hope your little one lets have a tad more sleep next week

  • I’m sure it’s the week of the summer holiday that is the hardest. I’ve had work commitments that mean everything else has been abandoned. Definite parenting guilt. No toddler. I hope you are catching up on the sleep now. I’m glad you were able to off load. I think we all need that sometimes. #wotw

  • It’s really hard to handle life when you are having night after night of interrupted sleep. It’s good to hear that you are sleeping better and you found a friend to offload on. I hope that your nights get better.

    #MMBC

  • Oh no! It sounds like you have been busy. I am sure your toddler doesn’t hate you! My girls were like that for a little while when they were small. I hope she settles down to sleeping through soon!
    Sending big hugs.

    • Ahh thanks Kim. She was up again at 5am this morning but managed to sleep through until then. Except for a stinking cold, I now feel a lot better 😊

  • It’s so hard when you have sleep-disturbed nights and early starts with a little one, isn’t it and everything feels so much worse when you’re exhausted. I hope that this week has been a much better one for you and you’ve managed to get a bit more sleep x #WotW

    • Absolutely, I was never great on lack of sleep anyway. Never mind, I’m sure I’ll look back on these days with fondness 😁

  • Nothing worse than lack of sleep.
    It is a very hard juggling game to try and keep everybody happy, and do self care as well.
    Believe me my kids are grown and flown but some weeks I am so tired I can sit and cry and explode for no reason either.
    I feel your pain with the PMS, I remember running a PMS group back in the 80’s and people from all over Scotland came to my meetings, more a meet and moan session with a few speakers thrown in every now and then as there was little around at the time, hormones are horrible and you know you are being irrational but cant stop yourself.

    • I would love a meet and moan group, i can imagine you would come away feeling so much better.
      Thanks for commenting. Sometimes with PMS you feel like your going a bit crazy so it’s nice to be reminded that it’s not just me.

  • This could be my word of the week every week! We’re all to pot at the minute, sleep-wise, with the clocks going back and then being all out of routine with half term holidays too. Hoping for a bit more normality next week – whatever that is! #MMBC

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